Happy New Year!
It’s been a while (to the 4 people that read this blog). Over the past few months since my last entry, I’ve started writing a bunch of blog entries, even did a couple photoshoots but was never quite happy with them. As time passed and they remained half-finished in the “draft” section, I got more discouraged and left the blog alone (but remained kind of active on social media, mostly Instagram). There are a couple reasons why, if I want to be brutally honest.
- Regularly updating a blog with meaningful content is a lot of work. I work a regular corporate job so I could only do this in my free time on nights/weekends.
- My blog/Instagram account wasn’t growing as fast because of me not spending more time on it, so then I got more discouraged and didn’t feel like working on it. But maintaining a blog takes a LOT of work especially when you’re starting out. So obviously this led to a vicious cycle of neglecting my blog.
- I was (and continue to be) really self-critical of the photos of myself and my outfits. My husband is such a good sport and is always willing to take photos of me, but there were a bunch of days when I had planned a shoot and put together an outfit, but ended up changing my mind and not wanting to do it because I felt ugly or unattractive that day. Or we would do a shoot and I ended up not posting any of the photos because of the same reason.
On that last bullet point, I never was so critical of myself until I started taking lots of pictures of myself for this blog. When you’re going over dozens of photos of yourself to select the “best” ones to edit and post, tiny things you never cared that much about become magnified. Why is my nose slightly crooked? Why am I smiling so weird? Why do my bangs always do that weird swoopy thing on the side? I was not happy with how I looked so I withdrew.
That’s why my Instagram for the past several months mostly featured photos of food I ate. It’s also an easier way to rack up lots of likes, by posting well-composed shots of plates of colorful and delicious looking food. I love food; I love going out and trying new restaurants. But I don’t want to be only a food blogger. I love clothes and styling my outfits too.
So in the new year, I’m going to try to become more comfortable in my own skin. I want to get better at taking photos and learning how to pose better. I don’t want to just give up and let the negative feelings overtake any progress I make.
With that in mind, I went out a few days ago to take photos of my New Year’s Eve outfit. Ross and I went to a club near our neighborhood that plays mostly 80s new wave, Britpop, indie pop, etc. They were doing a New Year’s Eve party with 2 floors of dancing. I didn’t have a super glittery or gold dress (I used to have metallic silver glitter leggings but I donated them a long time ago), so I put together an outfit with the glittery items that I had. It’s hard to see in the photos but the skirt has gold glitter thread running through it, the shoes are white glitter colored, and my black tights are sparkly!
The heart sweater is a new item from ModCloth and I adore it. It’s made of a fabric blend that is so comfortable and soft. I’ve had itchy sweaters before but this is the perfect softness. It’s also a little baggy and slouchy for a nice casual look (I usually don’t like really tight fitting sweaters).
I hope everyone’s new year is off to a great start!
Skirt: American Apparel, old
Shoes: American Apparel, old
Clutch: Urban Outfitters, old
Headband: Forever21, old
Necklace: Banana Republic, old